Human beings are strange.

At one moment, we will feel incredibly happy for the people around us, and the next, we’ll feel an inexplicable sense of jealousy and envy.

When we achieve something, we’ll feel on top of the world, but then, we’ll start wondering, “Do I even deserve it all?”

We love someone deeply. They know it. We know it. But sometimes, we end up doing or saying things that hurt the very people we love.

And the worst part is, we don’t talk about this part of us. We bury it under the carpet and censor it like a book that asks too many questions.

Because this side of us triggers feelings of shame. We don’t like the fact that we can be genuinely happy for someone, yet also jealous and envious of them. We don’t want to face the reality that we have the capacity to hurt the people we love. 

But the more we ignore this side of us, the more dangerous it gets. 

The moment we become aware of it, the same dark force empowers us to do good and do better. That awareness is what we’ll build today!

Where Does the Darkness Come From?

Imagine a bright sunny day.

The air is warm, the leaves are fresh and crisp, and the vibe is great. All of a sudden, dark clouds roll in, and a heavy downpour ruins it all.

That’s exactly what this hidden darkness does to us. Everything in our lives could be going perfectly well, but these thoughts will roll in like thunderclouds. And we’ll feel guilty about it. 

But like thunderclouds, these thoughts can’t just appear out of nowhere. They have a source where they build up.

Let’s address that source today.

About a hundred thousand years ago, our ancestors had to fight to survive in the wild jungles. There was no concept of security, stability, or safety.

Every day was a 50/50 bet on survival itself. So, they had to adapt to the harsh environment and fight for resources like food and water.

So, when they saw another tribe having more resources than them, they felt, “If I could get their resources, I would survive better.”

Either they would fight with the tribe and win over the resources or use other tactics to get to them. 

But the feeling was, “They have more. I don’t.”

And that lack drove them to fight, conquer, and go on to search for more.

Back then, this was necessary. If they didn’t feel this lack, we would not have survived as a species. You and I wouldn’t have been alive.

But today, we’re no longer living in those jungles. Survival is no longer that big of an issue. And we have more than enough for all of us.

However, this old feeling of lack has stayed around. It shows up in all those moments of big and small jealousy and envy that we feel for people. There’s no need for us to be jealous. We should actually be happy for them.

Eventually, though, our instincts take over, and we shame ourselves for going into this pattern.

But the truth is, we’re not actually at fault. It’s just an old pattern that’s running on repeat. The moment we can acknowledge it, we can break free from it.

Stepping into Abundance:

You can work on treating the leaves of your tree all you want. But if the roots are infected, all the new leaves you get will be infected too.

All the guilt, moral self-policing, and self-judgement that you do for having this dark side is like working on the leaves. Yes, in the moment, it will seem to bring you back to your happy side, but the next time you see someone else achieve big, you will go right back to envy, lack, and jealousy.

Because the roots were never sorted.

If you truly want this survival instinct to become a superpower instead, you need to change the root belief that fuels your lack: “I am not enough. Things are not enough.”

The more you believe this, the more your heart will sink when someone else succeeds, and you don’t. 

But when you believe, “I am enough. Everything is more than enough,” things completely change.

Instead of feeling a lack, you feel abundant when someone else succeeds. Because their success now becomes proof for you that “If they can do it, I can too!”

And isn’t that way more empowering than the dark side you keep avoiding?

I know it’s not usual for us to talk about these inner thoughts of envy and jealousy, but the moment we address them, we realize that we are free. 

We don’t have to stay stuck to the confines of our past. 

If we are living in abundance now, we can embrace it and use the fighter energy as inspiration to do more and create more success and abundance.

And that’s how our dark side becomes a source of empowerment instead!